What’s Between Me and Me

This episode was a bit of a roller coaster for me emotionally, I didn’t finish my nail set, I’m just rocking plain pink nails because I needed to GTFO of the nail room😆when I was done. I didn’t even top coat them. But it’s OK cause the gel I used is all in one so they’ll stay shining! 

Episode three? It’s like a heart-to-screen conversation that got real personal, real fast. We’re talking the relationship between Me and me—past, present, future, and all the messy in-betweens.

I went deep, sharing my journey of embracing my queer identity, blowing up my life to rearrange the pieces in a way that felt right, and stepping into the online dating scene. Yeah, it’s been a whole thing. And seems to be a whole thing all over again, who knew!

One of my fave ways to connect with myself is through the CORGI, but not the doggo kind (love ‘em, though). It’s this framework I’ve been leaning on: Compassion, Offering, Receiving, Gratitude, and Intention. It’s like a personal check-in that’s kept me grounded through the whirlwinds of change. It’s sort of like a secret weapon that’s helped me navigate the waves (3/5 emotional mani-gen here).

Here are a couple of different CORGI examples:

September 19th, 2023

C – Today I’m pouring compassion on the version of me who might feel stupid, duped, strung along, icky for trying to be wanted by those who don’t want me, me who has been taken advantage of, me who has a whole spectrum and range of emotion about this and who oscillates between all the feelings, tired Tara, hype-y mom Tara

O – I’m offering up desk building lol

R – New clients, a wicked graphic designer, content inspiration specifically for YouTube content

G – Standing desk energy, new rug vibes, reading nook dreams, skate park dreams, solo travel dreams, big Mac energy, mattress protectors, clients I enjoy working with, new projects, better marketing, growth & expansion

I – Remain focused & check the boxes, dishes

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C – Pouring compassion on the part of me who feels judgmental of those in my life, especially when I’m seeing them wrestle the same struggles I’ve been wrestling/will continue to overcome. Holding space for myself to be in the processing of and look at my truest, most honest feelings, including those of judgement for others.

O – Tooth situation, if I need to get it taken out let me know and let the next steps be shown and help me trust that the money will be there. Money stuff, feeling really raw and emotional around the money stuff of it all right now.

R – It’s easy for me to receive Higher Love, support, kindness, compassion, relationships where conscientiousness, reciprocity and consideration are an equally shared responsibility, where radical Love, acceptance and respect reign supreme. It’s easy for me to receive Love and space to express myself. It’s easy to receive inspo for business stuff, science experiments and to be guided to my next steps.

G – I’m grateful for kisses and physical intimacy shared this weekend. I’m grateful I followed the inner pull to get away and reset. I’m grateful for a safe trip home, that I could do repair with Simon this morning. I’m grateful for warmth and the sunshine.

I – Rest, enjoy the small joys fully

Looking ahead, I’m dreaming big—creating a vibrant home for my kiddos, reshaping my business to align with who I am now, and yes, opening up to the idea of love that feels just right. It’s all about stepping into new chapters with a bit of grace and a lot of hope.

So, if you’re on the brink of something new, feeling the jitters but ready to leap, here’s your nudge from someone who’s been there. Your story, your dreams, they’re valid, and heck, they’re needed. <3